Oyasumi

being able to solve a difficult physics' question

and watch an emotional detective drama

makes a great night

asou-kun to iruto...tsurai desu

"it's painful to be with asou-kun

wanting to do this, wanting to do that

i can't help but thinking, if i'm healthy,

i'd be able to

this way, i'm only growing more miserable

i...

can't see you anymore"

if you were to marry someone

most of the case, you'll be marrying him/her

when he/she is healthy,

financially stable,

he/she is full with love towards you,

he/she is still young, looking good and all that.

what if one day,

he/she become fully paralyzed,

and need someone who can take care of them rund um die Uhr,

or lose job and unable to find a new one,

or when he/she is finally become bored

after spending ten/twenty years with the same person

or when time snatches all the beauty from its owner

would you still have the same feeling towards him/her

like the ones you had when you are marrying him/her?

would you?

would you?

Asalkan Ada Alasan

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recently, i have come to hate some people

is it wrong to hate?

is it wrong to hate someone who questions everything?

thinking they are right everytime, all the time

apa yg org buat semua salah, idea kau semua betul

looking down on others, seeing others with face saying "apahal budak ni?"

kamon la

if u can't accept some people's way/appearances/characters

then biar la dia mcm tu, jgn pedulikan dia

(paradoxically, aku pun pedulikan org ni)

maybe that's why

my friend once wrote, ignorance is a bliss

*******

i've lost it

i don't know when

it's so different

it's so different

i want 'you' back

i want to be like before

come on

there's emptiness in this body full of matter

give it back...

give it back...

God, please give it back...

i want my old self back

i really want...

...my old self back

and that times

i...

really...

have lost it

*******

"cinta itu adalah berubah utk mjd lbih baik"